"I am sorry Arman ,I don't deserve you. I... I... I am not right for you. You deserve much better than me. I am sorry... sorry." 

She ended with these words and broke into more cries. She finally disclosed her past. Her eyes filled with tears and I am sitting beside her, letting her flow her emotions and process all that she went through. She went through so much, it's hard to deal with things.  I am feeling my blood boiling by seeing her face wet with continuously flowing tears. I have never seen her like this before.

I am feeling my blood boiling by seeing her face wet with continuously flowing tears. I have never seen her in this state; she was never so vulnerable in front of anyone as she is in this moment.  It hurts me that I am not present when she needs someone to help her, and now I can't gather enough courage to comfort her. Her eyes drop precious tears, and with every drop, my heart hurts. I can feel her pain, her shivering body, and her dry lips. She is sitting in front of me, hugging her knees. 

Today, I promised her that I wouldn't react impulsively. However, after learning about what she went through, a shiver ran down my spine. I just want to release my rage on the person who is responsible for breaking my girl like this. I held her in my arms and gently pressed my fingers against her head until she fell asleep